Goodbye
Chris Mathien
I am a non fictional character
And I am not worth a quote
I’m just an author creating my reality
And it’s been a while since I wrote
See I’ve been training for the love Olympics
I had my eye on the gold
Then something extra it grabbed a hold of me
I hate to leave but I gotta go
Don’t you go bleeding on me
I’ve never cut intentionally
I’m just your backseat driver
You should take your own lead
Fly on, fly on, fly on, fly on
You talk to Mary and talked to Joseph
You asked them how to raise a child
You spoke to Allah talked to Jah and prayed to Buddha
But ended up listening to Luda
I plead the fifth when it comes to being silent
Sometimes I speak before I think
So you can take it the wrong way or take it the right way
If you wanna see the truth then don’t blink
Don’t you go bleeding on me
I’ve never cut intentionally
I’m just your backseat driver
You should take your own lead
You’ve heard my famous story
Lord knows I’m not locked down
When you don’t know where home is
You’re never homeward bound
I tried to ignore those twisted thoughts inside my head but I’m not thinking about
The truth its gonna hurt you but it’s gonna make me feel good
Don’t wait for me to come clean
You’re better off just diggin it out
Or just forget what you don’t need
Good bye, goodbye
Goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye, goodbye
So so long, so long
Don’t you go bleeding on me
I’ve never cut intentionally
I’m just your backseat driver
You should take your own lead
You’ve heard my famous story
Lord knows I’m not locked down
When you don’t know where home is
You’re never homeward bound
Remember f. Tic Tock
Chris Mathien, Danny Tock
I think I believe the rain gonna pour straight down on me tonight on me tonight
Brain storm wash away these memories of love and happiness
I don’t wanna remember I don’t wanna remember them
Once again as predicted
You took advantage of my only addiction you
You’re playing these tricks again and im falling for your behavior once more
I hope that you don’t think that you could come back any old day of the week to hold me now like nothings wrong when you know dam well you’re confused about what to do
Oh you put the hurt on me so bad
I thought you were the best friend I ever had
No love is an enemy and it’s sending me back to the cemetery
Love is the only thing that can kill you twice but bring you back to life
I’m pushing I’m maintaining I’m trying to be patient
I think I believe the rain gonna pour straight down on me tonight on me tonight
Brain storm wash away these memories of love and happiness
I don’t wanna remember I don’t wanna remember them
Sometimes I wish it was all a dream so when I wake up all alone again
Maybe I can be content with reality but honestly this has been the hardest thing for me
Cause your actions have made our whole existence a fallacy
We both knew it wouldn’t be perfect obviously just needed you to be patient you said you want to be
But empty promises turn into apologies wish we could have tried to talk it through but you ran out on me
Now a portion of my heart lies vacant the second time around didn’t think youd break it again
Not only losing my girl im losing my friend cant belieive this is the end of two star crossed lovers
Different like day and night but a perfect combination like a left and a right
But in the battle between love and war it was a losing fight this is the story of my life
I think I believe the rain gonna pour straight down on me tonight on me tonight
Brain storm wash away these memories of love and happiness
I don’t wanna remember I don’t wanna remember them
You know sometimes I feel like ill never understand
And other times I wonder if you understand yourself baby
Maybe youll be better off just working it out on your own
You know I think sometimes id better just leave you alone
I don’t want to love you not if you don’t love me back
You need to make up your mind before you make up your mind
I’m gonna let this rain pour down on me, down one
I think I believe the rain gonna pour straight down on me tonight on me tonight
Brain storm wash away these memories of love and happiness
I don’t wanna remember I don’t wanna remember them
Don’t leave me behind
See you walking out the door
You don’t know what love is
Slowly As You Live
Chris Mathien
Watch em all in a row feel your soul live
Feel the grips on your pain back into your love once again
Put your palms hand in hand let the storm brew
Flee the bad feel the good good reminisce now
How we wanted it to last in a flash it faded into oblivion
We broke the rules but were fools in the end
When the battle begins tell me who really wins when
Everything will be gone either all at once when you go or slowly as you live
Faces in the mirror keep looking at me and I wanna figure out who made me feel the way I do
Once I was normal now I’m just low
Maybe it’s a cruel world, I don’t know but
Everything will be gone either all at once when you go or slowly as you live
It’s out of nowhere
It’s out of nowhere
It’s out of nowhere
It’s out of nowhere
Beautiful colors all over you got hold of you you
You were in a place that no one wanted you to be including you
We’ve been waiting on the light to shine but we’ve blind
Gotta go right back to playin dumb again now once again
It’s one thing to put the hurt on right away
It’s another to pretend that the problem never was there
I happen to recall a time when love was untrue nothing could be done to remove the blue
When your friends become strangers
You cannot help but feel angry inside
One thing is certain in this lifetime
You gotta take it in stride when you understand
Everything will be gone either all at once when you go or slowly as you live
Faces in the mirror keep looking at me and I wanna figure out who made me feel the way I do
Once I was normal now I’m just low
Maybe it’s a cruel world, I don’t know but
Everything will be gone either all at once when you go or slowly as you live
Out of nowhere
Out of nowhere
You don’t have to runaway but run along (run along run along
Run along run along run along
And everything will be gone
Everything will be gone either all at once when you go or slowly as you live
Faces in the mirror keep looking at me and I wanna figure out who made me feel the way I do
Once I was normal now I’m just low
Maybe it’s a cruel world, I don’t know but
Everything will be gone either all at once when you go or slowly as you live
Genius
Chris Mathien
It’s been lonely with out you around
There’s no one to clean up after me
I threw away my new year’s resolution
Now I am set free
And I miss the leash you tied tightly around my neck
And I miss the way you mistreated me please come back
It’s the same old story I’m just a lost little boy
They say I’m misdirected but they can’t destroy me
Fuck what you’ve heard I’m not wastin my time get off me
Cause I’m just a genius and I want people to love me
Childhood, it went by fast
I always making trouble playing in the grass
Doctor said this one seems a bit different
He has some trouble listening I think he needs Ritalin
It didn’t work so they switched me to adderall
I sold pills to friends and man I had it all
And high school, it was a dream for me
I’m still walking on easy street
It’s the same old story I’m just a lost little boy
They say I’m misdirected but they can’t destroy me
Fuck what you’ve heard I’m not wastin my time get off me
Cause I’m just a genius and I want people to love me
Sing it again
I’m just a genius and I want people to love me
I’m just a genius and I want people to love me
Im just a lost soul so anywhere you go you cant resist me
Oh I can fly so high oooohh
Loving you is easy because I love myself
Because I love myself yes I do
It’s the same old story I’m just a lost little boy
They say I’m misdirected but they can’t destroy me
Fuck what you’ve heard I’m not wastin my time get off me
Cause I’m just a genius and I want people to love me
Sticks & Stones
Chris Mathien
There they go people open up their mouths and I don’t believe the things that I hear
No I won’t let it bring me down so let’s just make a few things clear
I don’t appreciate the way you communicate, let me just figure out things all by myself, whoa
Is it jealousy are you telling me,
All this talking really doesn’t help
That’s what they say
That’s what I heard
Somebody told me
Yeah but that’s just people talking
I don’t wanna seem like I’m all bent out of shape
And I know that I’m not perfect
And sometimes these words feel like sticks and stones
But it never makes me nervous
I know people are gonna talk
I still need to walk
Cause I havent found my way home
If you got a problem then you let me know
There’s no need to throw sticks and stones
That’s what they say
That’s what I heard
Somebody told me
Yeah but that’s just people talking
That’s what they say
That’s what I heard
Somebody told me
Yeah but that’s just people talking
Talking is just what it is, and that’s what it is and that’s what it is
Talking is just what it is, and that’s what it is and that’s what it is
Talking is just what it is, and that’s what it is and that’s what it is
Talking is what is
Don’t you know
That’s just people talking
[Whispers]
Did you hear what he said
Don’t listen to her
That’s what they say
That’s what I heard
Somebody told me
Yeah but that’s just people talking
That’s what they say
That’s what I heard
Somebody told me
Yeah but that’s just people talking
Amanda
Chris Mathien
I’m not the king of confrontation
But If I have to knock you down, I will
I am the mountain and you are the hill
She told you once before
Let it be, let it be
I don’t wanna get involved so don’t test me
I know that you’ve been watching her from a distance
I’ve told you once I’ve told you twice
That she’s mine
As I lay down this law there better not be no resistance
I’ve gotten through bigger men than you just to get to a fight
I’m not trying to be mister hard ass, I don’t want enemies
If you wanna be cool that’s cool with me
Just don’t stare her down and write her letters
Cause it creeps her out
And it’s making me mad
You don’t know what we have
You just wish you did
Maybe you should find something better to do
I don’t want know trouble
It’s the last thing I need
Don’t test me
I see her every day and hold her in my arms
Your obsession could never be stronger than my charm
If you need some one because you’re lonely
There’s a thousand lonely people out there
I’m losing sleep at night thinking you’re crazy
And wonderin when your gonna kill me
Then again I’m not afraid to die
I just don’t want Amanda to get hurt
That’s why I’m warning you
If the shit hit’s the fan you’re mine
Broomsticks & Cereal Bowls
Chris Mathien
Your style and your grace
Is something that I envy very much
In fact….it’s a pleasure just to know you
And anytime I slip, you’re there
Catching my drift in a bucket
I can’t complain cause there comes a time
The garbage is getting filled up to the brim
Your father ain’t around so you can’t turn to him
Plus your medicine cabinets filled with, the skeletons
Why would we insist on living in filth?
When the world spins on a tilt, any second it could tip
That would be the end of us,
Say goodbye to the life that we live so you can watch me clean:
The Closet
And the Sink
Brown Shoes
Guitar Strings
Organize
Be Proud
Someone’s cleaning up the room today.
What color is your hair?
What’s happenin’ in your dreams?
It’s really got nothing to do with who you are.
You’re a product of your surroundings
It’s a challenge just for anyone to change around the place that you live.
Well let’s begin with:
The Closet
And the Sink
Brown Shoes
Guitar Strings
Organize
Be Proud
Someone’s cleaning up the room today.
Windex
Dirty Clothes
Broomsticks and the Cereal Bowls
Wash them out for good
Someone’s cleaning up the room today
And love comes all together
Through the bad and the stormy weather
Something inside of me is changing
For the better
Cause I’m free, and I’m clean.
Dirt That I Do
What’s the matter with my mind?
Well it’s probably the fact that I don’t use it sometimes
I’ve been making moves in the dark with a blindfold on
When they turn back on the lights I feel so wrong
It hasn’t always been this way
In fact it used to be that
Women always seemed to make me nervous
But now I’m too full of myself for my own damn good,
So this blow to my ego I deserved it
If I could go back
I probably would
I would take the bad and turn it into the good
NO one’s perfect
That includes you
It’s still no excuse for
The dirt that I do
What’s the matter with my car
Maybe it’s the fact that I can’t drive it anywhere without thinking about you
Every time my cell phone rings there’s a feeling inside
Hoping your name shows up on the caller ID, but it’s never you.
Maybe I’m being too hard on myself
I’m really feeling bad about the circumstance
If I had a time machine I’d key in 2003 and do it all again
Oh what a regret this is
It’s dark in the hole
Rough on the grain
Just when I thought the sun began to shine
Here comes the rain.
God Damn
Chris Mathien
War in the East
They say it’s alright just so long as we don’t bleed
We’re safe
So it seems
And we need lies just so we can feel better about our bad dreams
People don’t seem surprised no more and the children don’t cover their ears when I say God Damn
It’s just the way that the world spins
Mama don’t wash my mouth out with some when the elder lies can’t even hear when I say God Damn
It’s just the way that the world spins
It’s the little ones who look up to you if you
Got some little ones then watch what you do
They can copy everything that they see
Everything that they see is everything they believe
That old cripple man who’s waiting on the bus stop
Has got more wisdom than any of us but
We walk around with our phones to our heads
Man I’m sleeping even when I’m not lyin in bed
I’ve also got some problems with materials
I think that people think they’re way too important
What matters is the love that you keep
Not the diamonds on your rings or them shoes on your feet
You need love you need to give
I can’t stand it much more than this
I wanna walk right through the badness
And show you how to live.
Angel
I got this hole in my brain
But it’s not from ecstasy use that you see on MTV
I’m afraid it’s so much worse than that
It’s a matter of life and death
I’m on the search for heaven and hell
Sometimes when I hear the name of God
It doesn’t even ring a bell
I tried to go to church I tried to say a prayer
I do the rosary but it doesn’t seem to work
And if God doesn’t exist, I don’t want the label of an atheist
I tried to go to youth group it didn’t work at all
They made me feel guilty because I run my mouth I need a blessing I need an amen
It’s been to long since someone forgiven my sins
I’m in search of an angel
I spend a good part of my life
Lookin for a man named Jesus
It turns out he’s a movie star
I found that pretty bizarre
The Rasta man believe
That he only come out when you’re smoking weed
I got some friends who would love to be a part of that church
I’m just so confused by this theological spell
My best friend just told me that he was gay
His family thinks he’s going to hell
I think that’s just evil in the world and like a shark it slowly swims
Before he catches hold of my boat, I hope that
I’m forgiven my sins
I find it hard to stay in tune
They keep telling me to move
Sometimes I wanna be free but the
World around me keeps pushing me pulling me
Take a walk up in my shoes
Behind every man’s happy song you can sing the blues
Two can play the game, but the feeling’s still the same
You can’t pretend you’re found when you’re in search of an angel.
Saturday Revolution
Chris Mathien
Go start it off right
City lights breathin like a creature sweat drippin down my face like a preacher
I don’t got shit to say but just listen, please listen
Would it be the end if I blew in the midst of an economic disaster
I think we need more than words just to save our souls
When I look outside, I think I see change, people all around me smile
If the world came to an end it wouldn’t be so bad cause we’d be together
If I had enough dough better know that I’d start a fuckin revolution
I’d probably go insane tryin to figure out why.
Leave Saturday up to me
Go set your self free
I’m feelin like a monster leanin on the wall talking bout
this booze goin down just a little to smooth
I got my ass just handed to me when I thought that I could play pool
We don’t talk about the war no more cause we said what we need to say
But it’s sad that the dope in the street is cheaper than fillin’ up the gas tank
Grandfather gotta work at Walmart just when he thought it was time to retire
He keeps sayin everything will be alright
but that’s easy to say when your losin your mind
All the people on the radio are just dictators with plastic surgery
The airwaves won’t mean a think when I’m hijacking this industry.
Saturday revolution.
Now come the time you’re feelin low with no place to go
Better figure out where your heart lies
Maybe we got work to do but fun can come with play
Do you wanna make love til the night keeps burnin into Sunday
Someday we’re gonna be... liberated
Little Richard
Chris Mathien
He had my back since day one
More or less he had my front
They say his vision wasn’t right
But he still knew how to hunt
He had a weird side
Used to dress himself in women’s clothes
They couldn’t fit their hands around a man whose presence so bold
Plus he had veins poppin out his face when he would perform
He had great big balls of fire look at him go
He knew the keys to press down, when he needed to make a sound
Good golly miss Molly she sure knew how to shout
Why go out when I could stay in?
He’s gonna get me in trouble
Little Richard doesn’t know what he’s doing to these women
They stick around cause they love him.
Back in the day he was shy, to afraid to hit the stage
He grew hair up on his chest, that’s when his voice began to change
He’s a dozen times more confident, it was time to go to work
He used to be so bashful, but now he’s just a jerk
Just picture little Richy creepin through the scenes with grace
He could hook a fish like that it didn’t matter the lake
The whole town knew his face he couldn’t handle the fame
But he wont testify against me cause I gave him that name.
Somebody needs to stop him now, but it’s not gonna be me.
Happy Pill
Chris Mathien
Hello again, It’s me
Thought I’d drop by just to see
Whatchya doin lately
And how you been
Seems like we haven’t talked for days
Aloha, remember me
The name starts with a C
And I love you
I always have and always will
You’re my happy pill
I’m gonna swallow you whole
And there is nothing you can do about that
It seems as though you have slipped from my mind,
Oh wait no….that’s a lie
Pretty Girlfriend, how I love you so
Man I miss your smiling face
You’re the future, I’m the past you see,
But then again it’s not a race
You can hold my hand any time, I’m always here
When you want some freedom
I’ll never fear.
The harder you try the hard you may fall
The quiet the talk the louder the walk
The proper the bad the messy the saint
The sinners are sad but you know that we ain’t
Hurt by the things your friends say
When you live by the only rule of today and that’s
Be cool be positive, sometimes I slip up when I say
Sometimes your lonely, some need a change
When love comes upon you, don’t let it slip away.
We Don't Need To Make Love To Know That We've Got It
Lyrics by Chris Mathien
There's a girl I know, she's so beautiful
And I don't think she knows it, I don't think she knows it
She didn't really talk at first, but I got her to converse
My mouth never closes, she's as pure as Moses
One day I held her hand and kissed her on the cheek, yeah
Next thing you know I'm with this chick like once a week, baby
Those weeks turned into days, those days turned into moments
She's with me all the time, there's never a lonely moment, when
I've been filled up by the love (I been filled up by the love)
She can't seem to get enough
Got to be the way that she moves (Supersonic)
In a world full of stems and seeds (Baby, she's the chronic)
Everything she touches has beauty all on it,
We don't need to make love to know that we’ve got it
I ran through life I played the game the same old song
I thought I knew about love but then she came and proved me wrong
And if she ever leaves, Id be a mess for sure
And id rather be alone than with someone who isn’t her
I've been filled up by the love (I been filled up by the love)
She can't seem to get enough (She can't seem to get enough)
Its got to be the way that she moves (Supersonic)
In a world full of stems and seeds (Baby, she's the chronic)
Everything she touches has beauty all on it,
We don't need to make love to know that we’ve got it
Oh givin' out love isn't a thing I do too much of
I'm kickin' up dust every time I seem to fall in love
I can't go without love, everybody knows that it's the truth, yeah
I can't see you everyday when I'm livin' under this roof
I've been filled up by the love (I been filled up by the love)
She can't seem to get enough (no, no, no)
It’s got to be the way that she moves (Supersonic)
In a world full of stems and seeds (Baby, she's the chronic)
Everything she touches has beauty all on it,
We don't need to make love to know that we’ve got it
I've been filled up by the love (by the love)
She can't seem to get enough (she can’t seem to get enough)
It’s got to be the way that she moves (Supersonic)
In a world full of stems and seeds (Baby, she's the chronic)
Everything she touches has beauty all on it,
We don't need to make love to know that we’ve got it
I've been filled up by the love (Filled up by the love)
She can't seem to get enough (She can't seem to get enough)
